Tuesday, September 24, 2013

City in Utah makes porn illegal.

According to this article, the city of Saint George, Utah has banned porn. This includes but is not limited to: the possession of magazines, toys, movies, and of course certain internet sites; basically anything porn related. They have gone as far as removing certain items from grocery stores. Little do they know how creative & kinky people can get..


Check out that article Here 

Monday, May 20, 2013

What went down- and the future of deal making.

So, a couple months ago I met this guy- Michael. He bought me shoes and we got talking as friends- he earned my trust, I let him in to my personal life.

I am a flirt by nature!

Sometimes I don't realize I'm doing it until it's too late. I flirted with him and made some plans- all to get a new computer because I'm THAT desperate on needing one. In the process of talking to him. I did develop feelings for him, and that desperate act turned in to honest wants. As most of you know,

I AM HAPPILY TAKEN.


Every couple has their ups and downs, Peetabread and I are going through one of these stages right now. I am the type of person who needs people physically and I've been known to cheat to get that physical need. 

I AM MAKING THE PROCESS TO CHANGE.


I honestly love- and am in love with Peetabread. I am planning to marry him and have a future with him. Being a cam girl, it isn't the best situation to be in for my job. Obviously a lot of you reading this know that I do flirt and interact with my viewers.. it's part of the job. NOT who I am out side of my job. 

Let's face it, most guys who come watch me want to feel special, like I'm here just for them. It's part of the job description to talk as such. If it's not- which I see the more successful girls don't- then I'll stop. I'm just trying to get a long ways in the business.

Back to my story, Peetabread and I were walking around Wallgreens one day, I went to the bathroom- and insecure him went through my texts. I've went through his once, it's fair game. He saw me flirting, confronted me- I saw how hurt and worried he actually was. I realized that I need to leave that way of thinking and talking behind. 

It's not how dedicated wifes' act. 


I want to be that for Peetabread. So, I told Michael that I can't talk like that any more, I am NOT planning to go out and see him any more (what I had to do to get the computer) - and that I wanted to be better and true to Peetabread. At first, he seemed very receptive and fine with just being friends.

I posted a tweet on Twitter asking if anybody knew, or had friend's that worked at a newspaper that could get me the coupon inserts. He said he had 2 friends that worked at the paper that could get them for me, and send them to me. The way he said it was almost as if he was doing it out of the kindness of his heart as a friend. 

BOY WAS I WRONG!


Yesterday, he "playfully" messaged me "Wow I have all these inserts, I wonder who to send them to" This some how upset me. So I told them to give them to someone else. This sparked a horrible fight. Where he stated that he "loved me and wanted to treat me better than Peetabread has" Well, he then proceeded to talk bad about him, and me, and our future- VERY verbally abusive things. Told me the ONLY way I could get these coupons I so badly want is through seeing him. - where I felt obligated to sleep with him. 

I said fine. I'll do it ( I'm an extreme couponer and my coupons mean A LOT to me ) all he had to do was admit that he never truly loved me or care for me- because the rude things he said to me, and called me (and Peetabread) and not wanting my happiness and being supportive in me is NOT caring or love. 

So thoughout the day - and even IN MY CAM SHOW asked me to marry him- after he was SO rude and abusive to me. 

Finally I just got DONE with his shit.... and let it go.



FOR THE FUTURE.

This is MY job, and if I'm trading goods (coupons for porn) I expect MY stuff first, then I  WILL get you yours. I (for a while) will be more harsh about tipping, and getting my things first. It's only fair.
I ALWAYS love friends, and will be your friend, possibly talk dirty. But nothing more than friends. I have a close circle that I'm willing to let in to my personal life, but it's gonna take a LONG time to earn my trust after this. 

Monday, April 22, 2013

Mission: Hair dye

May 1st marks my 2 year anniversary for being surgery free. 


To mark this momentous occasion, I wish to dye my hair grey- brain cancer awareness and blue- hydrocephalus awareness.  


My story:

When I was 3 years old I was diagnosed with a brain stem tumor. I underwent a drastic surgery to get most of the tumor removed, but due to it's location, the doctors couldn't remove it all. I under went an experimental round of chemotherapy.  There, is where I believe I developed hydrocephalus.


Hydro-ceph-al-us:  also known as "water on the brain," is a medical condition in which there is an abnormal accumulation of cerebrospinal fluid (CSF) in the ventricles, or cavities, of the brain. ***

*** found on wiki.com 

or... my body overproduces a fluid that my body also cannot drain properly, therefore, I have a tube under my skin doing it for me that leads to a cavity over my bladder. This makes me pee... A LOT


I've battled hydrocephalus all my life, most recently during my high school year. Starting freshman year I went through 6 surgeries over the next 4 years. 

My 6th surgery proved to make some sort of change, and proved to be a success. 

Due to my blessing, I cannot live a normal 9-5 life; hence I cam. But that's a post for another day. 

Point is-- I'd love for all of your support & help me celebrate this. Hair dye- especially getting it done professionally is NOT cheap! 


I NEED this to be done before April 28th! 

Please send an offline tip with tip note "Mission Hair dye" (or get sign ups- I get $1 per sign up) to my Chaturbate or use this link here to buy tokens. or my paypal if you have it... 

As intensive, I WILL be doing a photoshoot with it, and tippers will be getting it before release to the public.


This will mean SO much to me.. and I would enjoy ANY help I can get. 

Thank you all in advance!

xoxoxo